Do you carpe diem?

Many say carpe diem or YOLO, but they don’t really, really mean it. Not in the deep parts of their hearts. Not in the way they behave. If they truly lived only in the moment, you would not see them pay rent, go to sleep, step over puddles, and you would never ever see them make plans.

I am making no accusation of hypocrisy. I don’t think we should live like this moment is our only one, like today is our last day. “People who live in the present often wind up exploiting the present to an extent that it starts removing the possibility of having a future — Alan Kay.” I have that written in my notes.

But we should live like it is possible that today is our last day, while also living like it is possible that today is the first of several thousand more.

Prepare not as if you are going to die tomorrow, but as if you don’t know whether you are going to die tomorrow or 50 years from now.

Heck, give yourself a bell curve — of expected time left and plan accordingly.

But right now, I don’t know what this curve is going to look like. I have no baseline. Is it going to look like this:

1 year

Or like this?

5 years

I see my oncologist tomorrow, and I’m going to ask about my prognosis. Where does the bulk of the curve lie? Is it one year? Two? Five?

The more, the better.